"Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."
When it comes to our relationship, it’s like I have amnesia. I forget how faithful You are to me. I forget the moments when life is amazing and I am certain of Your promises to me. When I was sitting on the plane coming home from California, I had a moment where it was obvious — it was You all along. Why did I ever doubt You?
I remember having Bible study at church a couple months prior and remembering Phu talked about how our relationship with You, even though we can’t see You physically, we have memories with You.
I have memories of You; I have memories with You. Memories of nights where I waited for You, longing to hear Your voice. Memories of how alone I felt, and when I heard Your voice the first time. Memories of how in love I was with You, and when I walked with confidence because I knew without a doubt in my mind You loved me.
Why do I give myself away when it is only You I want? Why do I settle for people who doesn’t love me when it could never work because I know the words You have spoken to me are true? Deep in the hidden crevices of my heart, I know… and it sounds crazy, and I may be crazy, but I’m crazy enough to believe because I know You. I want to be Ruth. I want to wait. Help me wait. Help me find You in my waiting.